maddeningly inconsistent

somethings never will change.


I am messy. intense. maddeningly inconsistent. slightly obsessed about weird things like watches (i can never have too many). zany. lovely. funny. silly. weirdo. worrier. fighter but not one who gets into too many fights. I can predict weather by my headaches. (BAROMETER) boycrazy? perhaps.

am i stupid for thing i can change or do things differently I don't know. can i actively change or do things different.

i dont know why but i've been listening to a lot of 40's music the sirrius.xm station rocks.  there is a song i really like but i can't find the correct version the song is called you go to my head. the lyrics are cute and catchy

so in the rob gordon sense of music "was i miserable cause i liked pop music or was there pop music because i was miserable"  it would not exist if htere was only big band music all the songs are happy and upbeat lovey tunes. now granted sometimes the songs are strange like johnny zero (yes its about a guy who failed a test in grade school but then became a pilot in wwii and now is a hero)