Right here right now.

That's a Jesus Jones song from the 1990s

I feel tired, burnt out, and maybe ever so slightly jaded. i feel every second of my 33 years.  I just exist. for what purpose i do not know that's not for me to decide.

I feel full of quotes that reek of despairity.  I feel like I've temporarily lost my happy. 

The Moxie Zaftig girl:

I'm caught in the tempest

The storm swirls around me

I look up see the calming eye

I wait in the rain, let it fall upon me and wash me clean

To start a new, yet stay firmly planted where I always was.  

The east wind doesn't bother me much. just blows in my ear like a lover's breath whisperings of nothing and everything all unsaid.

With the hopes and dreams ever changing yet always the same.